Flora (:

2012-01-30T01:17:00.002+08:00

People changes. This is a fact that can't be changed.
Some change for the better, some worse.
You can never be the same as what i thought you would be.

I just got to leave you behind.

2012-01-24T23:57:00.001+08:00

3 mins before my 21st bday is over.

I'm happy and contended.

2012-01-03T02:12:00.003+08:00

又是新的一年了。时间过得真快啊。2011年是个很幸福的一年因为我能够完成我许多的心愿。 2012呢，希望会跟好。不知这年会怎样，可能会有许多考验必须经过。但是我相信我能够像去年一样坚强，或者更坚强！我要抛开所有的恐惧，向前跑到终点为止。因为有神凡是都能，只要把信息放在神，就会有奇迹发生！赞美耶稣！

2011-11-14T00:37:00.002+08:00

I believe miracles is ours to make.
We can't rely on the circumstances.

But we can change the way we do things.

We can change the way we think.

Where will we be after 5 years lies on ourselves.

每一天是新的开始，新的希望。我相信每个挑战都能让我更坚强，更勇敢地向前走。有时这条路走得很辛苦，但是每条路一定会有个出口。放弃不是一个解决方法或选择！

2011-11-03T01:04:00.003+08:00

I choose to not take this on my hands but lift it up to God.

Its the only way and the best way.

The battlefield between my spirit and flesh.

2011-10-31T23:08:00.002+08:00

Is it insane that things could just go this way?
Do I or do not I?

I see a few that I've been looking for.

If it is, God i'm not prepared.

And it have never crossed my mind.

Jesus! I need an answer.

2 different places. It will be difficult if it is.

2011-10-27T01:31:00.002+08:00

This song was sang during the Encounters mtg yesterday with Sun(: The meeting was filled with His strong love for us. Sometimes we forget how much He loves us. And i was surprised the worship band sang How He Loves by Jesus Culture(:

You ease my troubles that's what you do. I love You Jesus.

2011-10-24T01:43:00.002+08:00

Someone who loves You like I do

Someone who prays together
Someone who worships together

Someone who shares the same vision together

Someone who serves together

Someone who makes me love You even more.

Song of Solomon 8:4 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, Do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases.

My Story

2011-10-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

I have a story to tell. It wouldn't be possible at all. But by His grace, through His love I am able.
I thank God for this opportunity to be able to lead. I'm going back again.

I want to run to the altar
To catch the fire

To stand in the gap between the living and dead

Give me a heart of compassion
For a world without vision

I will make a difference

Bringing hope to my land.

2011-10-17T00:52:00.002+08:00

I was reminded of Jesus how He love us so unconditional. In Matthew 22:63-64, He was mocked and beaten by human beings. He was blindfolded and they struck Him on the face to ask Him to prophesy who struck Him.

He didn't have to face all this because He is God. A God that was beaten, mocked, spit on yet did not retaliate not a single time. When He was about to die, He even asked His Father to forgive those people.. Such humility, such meekness, such love.. He didn't deserve that but because He love us and chose us to spend eternity with Him.

I feel so undeserved. I feel so unworthy. I am just a mere human being. Even if there is only 1 person in the world, He will still die for that only 1..Jesus..

2011-10-15T02:34:00.002+08:00

I love to look up to the night sky everyday.
I can just stare and wander in my thoughts..

Time freezes just that moment,

and its just me and the nature of His beautiful creation.
I am content just like that.

2011-10-12T01:47:00.004+08:00

Today was a nightmare alone trying to install the microsoft sql at my client's company! Managed to do it by the grace of God after 3 hours! Puji Tuhan! The company sells Scuba Diving equipment and have courses to learn diving! One day i want to learn and dive in and see the beautiful fishes. The best months are April and May :D

And I'm glad that I made the choice to attend my ministry leaders meeting even though I'm tired. Now i know so many Christian music releases and upcoming new ones and movies for the Music campaign! I want to buy all the music cds because they are all so good and Music Academy i'm definitely getting it :D Was surfing online last week to learn more about guitar theory and happened to pass by a site about Music Academy. Wanted to get it in my mind but confirm need visa and might be expensive so i just forget about it. But now Attributes gonna sell and its 40 bucks and 3 for 100 over dollars. Its worth it because i can learn it whenever i want and replay it over and over again! Self learning:D God knows my heart! The person from Integrity Music Asia said if you pick up the skills in all 3 levels you will be a super good guitarist! I need more skills and learn worship through the artists like Tim Hughes and Matt Redman in the Dvds! It is not a coincidence I know! God speak through natural means..Yes!

I'm loving NCC's worship song. Tears just flowed down as i just listened..

His Love just overwhelms.
Tomorrow is a new day and I hope I can survive my first week! His grace is sufficient for me!

2011-10-11T00:58:00.002+08:00

I still remember this song that always in SOT when we go for morning breaks. Amazing song about serving God. Jesus was born so that He could serve us and He became the greatest. I say YES! Mission trips is when my heart grows bigger for compassion.

Matthew 9:36
But when He saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion for them, because they were weary and scattered, like sheep having no shepherd.

Matthew 14:14
And when Jesus went out He saw a great multitude; and He was moved with compassion for them, and healed their sick.

Matthew 15:32
[ Feeding the Four Thousand ] Now Jesus called His disciples to Himself and said, “I have compassion on the multitude, because they have now continued with Me three days and have nothing to eat. And I do not want to send them away hungry, lest they faint on the way.”
Matthew 15:31-33 (in Context) Matthew 15 (Whole Chapter)

In the whole of Matthew, God moved with compassion for the lost. Hence signs and wonders happened one after the other. Compassion!

2011-10-07T03:58:00.002+08:00

Amazing worship as ever. We can lose everything in life but one thing we can't lose is His deep love for us. Love is the foundation, the beginning of something new. With love the impossible made possible. Because of love, we can have salvation.

2011-10-06T01:30:00.003+08:00

Awesome and wonderful Maker
Who knows the beginning and the end
No one can ever be like You
Creator of every living things

I stand in awe of Your beauty
I stand in awe of Your majesty

I build an altar before You
To offer every bits and pieces of me
Sweet surrender, my heart I give
Jesus my love, no words can express

I am currently still working on the lyrics..It just suddenly came to me..

2011-10-04T03:13:00.002+08:00

I really love his voice. There's something special about him. I can't described it. When he sings, the presence of God is there. Something about him that i want to know.

2011-10-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

I don't know how should I feel and that is confusing.
Because how I feel affects everything.
It is tough!

Right to the Start

2011-10-01T05:16:00.000+08:00

As I look back at the photos taken during my time in SOT, it came unto me about God's goodness and faithfulness throughout these 6 months. I begin to feel God's presence. Never did I imagine myself going through SOT. I was changed. I remembered I doubted myself, my ability and my identity in Christ.

Since I came to church when I was 14+, I always wanted to do more for God. I always wanted to be use by God. I always wanted to be close to God. But throughout the years living as a Christian, I had many falls. I faced many obstacles and distractions that drew me away. Times when i'm far from God, my flesh desires the things of the world. And all along, every single day I knew He has been calling me to be by His side once more. Truly enough I did come back to His side because I came back to my senses that what I was searching for in this world could never satisfy me, could never give me.

When I was back by His side, I knew I couldn't love Him totally with all my heart because I had buried all the hurts, the disappointments all deep down and built a solid wall to prevent myself from being hurt. No matter how hard I tired to fight the pain, the thoughts every single night, I can't seem to break free. I seem to become a totally different person than I was before. I lost the joy I had. I lost my smile. Inside of me was full of bitterness. No matter how I tried to become the same person I was before smiling and laughing, I couldn't. I thought I could no longer be used by Him because I was so lost. I thought of giving up for trying so hard to struggle what's within me. Because I've hardened my heart, His love couldn't penetrate the solid walls. Even when I cried in His presence, my heart grew cold fast. But slowly, God dealt with me a step at a time.

He brought me back to what I was created for. He flashed the dreams He dropped into my heart when I was still a secondary kid, to serve Him wholeheartedly. I wanted to be a cell group guitarist. At that time, I was reluctant because I just got back on track with God and knew there's many things that my heart has not been dealt with. But I knew God wants me to and I told my cgl I wanted to be a cg guitarist. That was the breaking point of my life. I was hard pressed at every corners. I was trying my best to lead praise and worship but disappointments after disappointments put doubts in my heart that I can't be used by God given how broken I am that can't be fix. I saw many people rise up to another level with God but not me. I felt lousy. The position of a cg guitarist was taken away from me and I asked God why. So many whys till I came to a point that I surrendered myself to Him. Even if I can't be used by Him, it doesn't matter. Even to become a nobody, it doesn't matter because I will still use the talent He had given me to worship Him in my little room. I realized God wanted me to have a deeper relationship with Him. In the little room were the times God dealt with me and affirmed me about my dream. After a year, I became a cg guitarist again. He is always faithful. I enjoyed every single time I spent worshiping God and praising Him with my guitar.

But deep down, I still long for a change. A change of lifestyle, a change of view. I feel I needed a breakthrough in my walk with God. There came SOT. It was one of the hardest step to take because its out of my comfort zone. When I came into SOT, life was not easy. I had to step out of my boundaries to preach the Word of God, I had to lead worship, I had to lead games, share revelations, gave offering messages and many more. Those were impossible. I told myself if I could successfully go through SOT I would be a superwoman. There were many late nights thinking about the sermons to prepare, assignments to be done and would sleep the least an hour and attend SOT the next day. I thank God for His strength that strengthens me throughout SOT. God dealt with my heart during those 6 months. I experienced His unquenchable love that was so deep and cried like a baby many times. There, He spoke to me about His thoughts towards me and affirmed me about my future. I learnt about faith so much because I was sick for 1 week and was healed fast despite what the doctor has told me. I feel fortunate to be able to be in this 2011 batch because I could learn so much things from my team members.

When I was sent out for missions in Jakarta, I really had no idea how things were going to happen and start. I felt low because half of my team being sent out including me were not that good in preaching and half of the team were international students. I asked God is this possible that He sent out this half. But God made me understand one thing which is when human ability ends, there His grace will manifest. I literally leaned on His grace to the extend of having no choice but had to step in the gap to lead a children game last minute. It was like if I have to die, I die because everything happened in an instant. But thank God of His grace! I didn't expect to lead worship in the youth cg, but took up the courage and His presence was so strong in the room. Honestly, I was afraid. I was even afraid to share my testimony to a group of people. I always feel nervous to speak in public, even now I still do. I couldn't do all these without His grace. Puji Tuhan! God made me see that He sill could use us even we have imperfections. He made me see that all it takes is a willing heart. Through this mission trip, we grew closer with one another which was part of His plan too I believe. I learnt so much from my friends in Jakarta. Pushing the boundaries, making the impossible possible. I thank God for the gift of laying of hands, discerning people and gift of prophecy.

My life in SOT has made an impact for the rest of my life. The 1 thing that I will not forget in SOT will be loving God and loving people. Thank You Jesus for this opportunity to be able to experience You in a different way.

I still have many fears need to be conquered, character to be built, capacity to be enlarged. Everyday I'm falling in love with Jesus more and more. A pure heart to love Jesus is all I want and ever need. A heart without evil intentions, without wrong motives but a humble one that yearns and seeks only Him.

I am back and ready to take a lift. It was a tough journey and I finally got through everything. I've made it, right to the start.

2011-09-29T02:49:00.002+08:00

Deeply touched.

2011-09-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

I had a wonderful time in church today (: I'm so happy to see a friend and it was epic. Back to the basics again. A&B is coming and its time to build God's house!

2011-09-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

Loads of things on my mind. Things i want to do and its not easy at all. It seems impossible. I remembered all i have to do is just keep walking and not stopping even when it seems senseless to me. As i am walking, You used things around to enlighten me. Once again, here I am. Completely trust, 100% leaning on You. You gave me a verse on last Sunday and I remembered all the things you said to me in sot. So here I am, You're in charge. Make me Your clay, mold me all over again. Prepare me for the things you have for me. Not by power, not by might but by the power of the Holy Spirit. I can't wait to go Jakarta again. I know it will be a new experience to receive something new.
I like this song. God this must be my wedding song ;p

2011-09-17T16:07:00.001+08:00

2011-09-16T03:33:00.002+08:00

Plan to make plans.

This Ordinary Life by Michele McGovern

2011-09-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

I don’t want to be a soul just passing through
I want to do what I was made to do
‘Cause I’ve been given just one chance at life
And I won’t let my time here pass me by
God I know you have a plan for me
And I can live it out if I just believe
So Jesus take this ordinary life
and change the world
One soul at a time.

2011-09-10T02:55:00.002+08:00

Gosh, i felt nervous and happy when he talked to me suddenly. I kept finding words to say and its just super crazy the idea of me thinking. I'm happy for his upcoming bv audition (:

2011-09-07T04:06:00.002+08:00

I've read an article, a real story. I'm getting my senses back. What exactly am i doing all along? What i'm i doing every second, every moment as the clock ticks? From now on..

2011-08-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

The mother just sat down and looked at her son's lifeless body.

That hopeless feeling.

The so many what ifs.

He was just celebrating his friend SOT graduation last week.
Everything was well, and just for a second he's gone.

The only thing i can do is to give a big warm hug.
Life is vulnerable and precious.

I've made it, SOT 2011.

2011-08-23T18:31:00.003+08:00

In Christ alone,

I place my trust,

And found my glory in the power of the Cross

In every victory let it be said of me

My source of strength,

My source of hope,

Is Christ alone.

I missed those early morning bible study classes.
Those altar calls we've made with God.
Those times we knelt down before God and surrender our all.
This precious memories,
the reason why again I came to SOT.
Let it not be in vain,
but a step to serve Him even more.

Be With You by 3pm

2011-08-08T02:58:00.002+08:00

美好的救主
患難時刻你是隨時的幫助
主你賜的平安
勝過這世界
一生信靠你不怕任何風浪

信實的天父
看顧我心靈使我能夠得堅固
你照亮我道路
引導我的腳步
我全部生命都願順服

我要永遠敬拜你
在我生命中你永遠都是唯一
沒有人能夠取代你我親愛救主
有誰能夠叫我與你分離

我要不住敬拜你
願你永遠能喜悅我的生命
求你滿足我的渴慕
願緊跟隨我救主

Lord I long to worship You
In my life , You are the only I need.
No one can take your place

My precious Jesus

2011-08-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

Having a bad headache after sleeping for 12 hours.
Whenever i feel restless, moody and frustrated, worship songs revives my soul within.
The presence of God makes a difference.
When there is the presence of God, there is always hope, love and faith in the atmosphere.

The presence of God lifts all my burdens and stress away.

I love Your presence. It is what keeps me going when all else fails.
Let not Your presence depart from me God.

2011-08-01T03:06:00.001+08:00

Really a beautiful song by Natasha Bedingfield.
Cause anything can mend.

2011-07-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

Let me say.

Is family not important?
When time is at its ending,
Money is at the peak,
Don't ever regret.

Communication is the answer.
Either you lose a relationship,
Or you salvage it.
If you lose a relationship,
You can get it back once but not twice.
Choose carefully.
Choose wisely.

2011-07-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

There's this saying,
Once bitten, twice shy.
I have a lot of questions in my head.
Thoughts to ponder over and to think real hard.
Each step that i take,
I am super cautious.
Maybe I lost the confidence in it.
Sometimes things can't be comprehended.
Different people, different mindset.
I need a change of mindset, a change of view.

2011-07-18T19:06:00.002+08:00

When human ability ends, then there is the grace of God poured out.
Discouraged. God, make me a better guitarist and singer.

What faith can do.

2011-07-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

Faith is all about persevering,
keeping on believing and,
keeping on trying!
Dreams need to be chased.
All i need is faith.

Off to Jakarta!

2011-07-07T04:29:00.004+08:00

Excited about what God is about to do!
Here I am send me, a vessel for you to use.
Goodbye Singapore! :D

Chasen

2011-06-23T01:10:00.002+08:00

Sermons.
I need revelations.
I stumbled upon Chasen, a christian band. I'm loving Chasen right now~
I don't wanna drown in sermons. :/
I don't want to drown, i'm conscious.

2011-06-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

It is not the same as ever is it?
I tried.
maybe we lost it.

2011-06-07T00:44:00.002+08:00

I love Adele! A genuine singer. One word, perfect!! I'm learning to play Someone Like You on the piano(:

JC - Show Me Your Glory

2011-06-05T04:04:00.001+08:00

A generation of true worshipers of God (:

Happy Graduation, IFC 26 May 2011

2011-05-27T01:39:00.003+08:00

Happy memories, sweet memories of throughout my poly life. The ups and downs that i went through, the funny times, the crazy times, the sad times. I will miss them all. The time when i'm still a student. A new beginning to kick start something new. To God be the glory!

2011-05-23T00:26:00.002+08:00

God, even if i don't know why i'm going through this.
Help me to look to your face instead.
I need a breakthrough in this.
Make me strong o God and not having unbelieve.

You are greater and always a sovereign God.
I need faith.

Faith to trust in You.
Thank You Jesus.

Beastly

2011-05-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

Watched Beastly with Tash today. It was really a sweet and funny movie (:

What do you do
When your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.

Time to rest! Need to study for my BS quizzes for Friday. 3 books, 90 MCQs!!

2011-05-16T00:38:00.002+08:00

If i can rewrite the story,
I did want to do something better.
If there is a cleansing agent,

I would want a clear glass panel.

2011-05-15T01:16:00.002+08:00

2011-04-23T01:58:00.002+08:00

My bible reading and sos assignment! I need time, time, time. Love my family dinner outing today at East Coast!

2011-04-14T17:23:00.002+08:00

When you are so tired,
When you are just alone,
When all else fails,
His love never fails.
He is always there.

There will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
Press on.

Waiting For Forever

2011-04-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

When will this movie be coming out in Singapore? I want to watch it!

2011-04-09T01:21:00.003+08:00

I love indie songs. I think songs that have a dreamy and a touch of a little mystery feeling are nice. Like keane, coldplay.. I love this band. They should be more recognized in the music world!

2011-04-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

Seize every day,
every second.
Every day is full of mysteries.

Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think.
La Bruyere

I choose comedy.

Do or do not, there is no try.

2011-03-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

When you know that you have a purpose living in this world,

You know and you just know,
So why keep running and avoiding the plan He has for you?
When you know that you need Him,
Why don't you just stop being so into yourself and allow Him to do something about your life?

Maybe its time for you to re-think, re-analyse.
Life won't be right no matter how you try to make it right.
What if you know you can't live for tomorrow?

You will never know.

2011-03-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

God is SOVEREIGN.
He is in control in ALL things.

2011-03-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

An open heart is where God can do the most for us in our life.
No matter how many cell groups you attend,
church seminars you attend,
without an open heart to receive His teachings,
all is futile, breakthrough won't happen.
An open heart.

2011-03-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my first day in SOT.
I thought through about many things.
But the best answer is i want to know Him in a deeper way.

I want to feel and understand the heartbeat of my Father.

I want to understand what is total surrender again.

I want to understand what sacrifice is really again.

I want to understand what is truly brokenness.

I want to experience His love.

I need to know Him again.
Afresh, my first love.

You are always there,
but i kept running away,

this time i want to run towards You,

regardless of whatever may come.

Perfect.

2011-02-24T12:10:00.004+08:00

Currently loving this.

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

2011-02-23T01:11:00.002+08:00

God,

You know me,
My strength alone is not enough,

My will alone is not enough,

You know that i tried,

I am so so stuck in this.

Tell me how, give me a solution.

After all these while,

I had enough of it already.

It's time i need You to make it right.

The Final.

2011-02-22T02:32:00.002+08:00

The last lap upon graduation.
Fight the fight i will.
Its time to be a full time mugger starting today.
I shall conquer all the papers.

Grant me Your wisdom,
that i may do well.

All glory to You.
Through You all things are possible.

WHOOOO :D

2011-02-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

What are the things can be given up because of Love?

If one can't bear to sacrifice,
Love is not enough.

Love is not enough.

It should because of you want to but not need to.

Increase Love, that's what it is.

I need to re-examine my heart.

2011-02-12T02:20:00.001+08:00

If it doesn't break your heart, it isn't love
No, if it doesn't break your heart, it's not enough
It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out
That's when you find out what your heart is made of.

2011-02-10T02:33:00.002+08:00

I just turned down a date.
I feel so bad.

Happy Chinese New Year!

2011-02-02T15:13:00.002+08:00

Cause you are a firework. (:

End of January, the mark of February.

2011-02-01T01:59:00.003+08:00

The first month of the year has passed. Time flies!
Few things to thank God for.

1. My term tests good results

2. Major Project report results 20.5/25 :D
3. NetSec PowerPoint Presentation 31/40 (2nd highest)

4. My beloved Maestro Guitar as my birthday gift from my parents

5. Starbucks water bottle from Tash :D
6. All my friends who celebrated my birthday

7. Cell group guitarist

8. SOT

Some of my long term resolutions were fulfilled! I love my Starbucks bottle from Changi Airport (: Have been looking for a nice Starbucks bottle around Singapore and wanted to get it for myself when Tash just bought it on the spot as my birthday gift.:D Its Valentine's Day bottle edition haha.

And just got interviewed by Pastor Edmund for SOT at the end of service after submitting the form 2 days ago. Phew i guess i'm really going to SOT, no backing out. I just wondered, what if i didn't do anything about what i thought of doing, things won't happen, things around me won't change. It reminded me again, courage. Courage to do what you want to do, not thinking about how others will look and think about you. What matters is how you think.

Cell group guitarist was one of my resolution. I was hoping that i can play for cg by the end of march but when Jared told me to play the day before, i was shocked. I didn't expect so soon. Thank God for answering my prayers(: Despite the discouragements.

This month. STRESS! Assignments and projects on the line for the first 2 weeks and after that is my main examinations. My February definitely will pass super fast. =.=

I am thinking,
I am thinking,
I am thinking hardly.

I am hoping,
I am hoping,

I am hoping really that day would come.

2011-01-17T01:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you know whats one party intention and motive,
yet you just willingly go ahead with the motions,
knowing it will bring you back to the same old spot.
Thats where decisions have to be made right else its just repeating the whole cycle again.

This time round, i choose to be heartless if there is a need to be.

Letters to God

2011-01-14T22:36:00.003+08:00

I finally watched this movie, Letters to God. This movie touched my heart and its such an inspirational movie. I cried alot watching this movie. This movie is about hope and love through the eyes of a child who name Tyler. He is an amazing eight-year-old boy who struggle his daily battle against cancer with courage and grace, with the courage of his faith throughout the love and care which had never end by his loving family and community.

Inspired by true story!

I'm gonna get my darling tmr(:

2011-01-13T01:38:00.002+08:00

Yet still i do,

yet still i love,

despite it all,

its in me every single day.

I still can't find the exit door up till now.

Sighs.

01.01.2011, The starting mark of this year.

2011-01-01T22:37:00.008+08:00

Happy 2o11!

My 2011 Resolution.

Earn and save more $$, A Maestro guitar, Closer relationship with family and friends, Good results for studies, Inner self.

I need to make a decision for SOT too. The doors of opportunity are opened, i just need courage, need faith.

Spent my new year count down at Marina Barrage picnicking with my fellow secondary classmates! We've been friends since sec 1 and they are all so crazy! I love crazies. ;P Headed down after my work and thank God for six sense as i just walked further down to a bus stop after Illuma knowing that there will be a bus to Marina Bay station no matter what. And there was bus 133!

The night scence(: Beautiful!

Party hats, blowing trumpets, snacks and drinks. Everything to make a perfect happy party!

Headed back to Pasir Ris at 10 pm and there were too many people heading to Marina Bay while going back to the station. We had to squeeze through the crowds and glad that we left else it would be hectic when the clock strikes 12.

We had our celebration part 2 at our childhood BBQ place for the countdown and had fun with fireworks. Everybody was so crazy!

After that we went to Regina's house to watch movies, ate maggies at around 5am and went home at 6 plus in the morning! Played so hard! Will always remember this day! Special moments togehter(:.

And now the study mode have to be switched on! A new year, new trials to face, new things, new life after graduation coming april. Goodbye 2010 and here i come getting pumped up to run the race for this year!

Update Part 1

2010-12-28T01:12:00.024+08:00

Finally after the busy week of Christmas, i can finally rest and play hard before 2011 starts! I enjoyed my Christmas week though i worked everyday non-stop since last Sunday till Christmas day.

17.12.10, Friday.

Whoo, the day that my term tests ended! Went to get the fondue chocolate @ Simei after my test for cg and out with Huimin and Esther to get christmas presents @ Orchard area. And here is KOI, newly opened @ Tampines!! Mwhahah. Tampines is awesome to the max.

18.12.10, Saturday.

Attended my grandmother's sister's daughter children wedding dinner @ Peach Garden, Thomson Plaza after christmas cg.

My cousins (:

My Grandma, as cool as ever (:

20.12.10, Monday.

Went to BluJaz @ Haiji Lane after my work @ 8pm with YuFang, Wayne and YiLing to celebrate Christmas! Intended to go Helipad but Wayne said there's nothing much so here it was that i suggested this place as Dennis had brought me there before and i love it! The ambiance there is absolutely good with dim lights, the alcohol drinks is nice and the food is really delicious too! (: The best place to hang out with your boyfriends, girlfriends and friends :D. Most of the photos in this place were taken by Wayne's camera and yet to get it from him. :( We had gifts exchange and it was really fun opening up presents. I received a small brown sling bag from YuFang and it really comes in handy as sometimes i don't need to carry lots of stuff when i go out. Its what i needed(: YuFang received a big round smiley face cushion from YiLing and Wayne received a blue checkered shirt from me. He told me he wanted to get almost the same checkered one atmEDC but don't have his size. hahaha I'm glad he liked it because its really so wayne when i saw this shirt lah.

After that we headed down to Wayne's house to celebrate YuFang's birthday.
Wayne's face is so LOL in this picture.
Wayne's dog is soo cute! I can't help it but to take pictures of her. Next time i would like to have a dog too, especially a Chow Chow!
We surprised YuFang while she was so engrossed in patting his dog and was shocked. hahaha. YiLing was the most funny one. She's scared of his dog and when it went behind her, she screamed and blew half of the candles away! Seriously very drama! haha

Her sabo was to drink 3 shots of gin mixed with sprite, it was Wayne's idea. Haha and he enjoyed the process of seeing YuFang suffer most lol. I hope my birthday they won't do anything to me man. =.= I'm starting to regret making YiLing carry a broom walking the streets of Bugis and Wayne kissing a fake rabbit on their brithdays. Eheemmmm. We watched She's Out of my League after that and headed home at almost 3am! Was really very tired and the best thing was i've got to work the next day.

21.12.10, Tuesday
Celebrated Yvonne's and Esther's birthday @ Soup Spoon after my work.

My tired face lol.Yvonne's maroon shirt present(:

Esther's turn! :D

Yvonne's personal gift to Esther (:.

Tests makes me stress.

2010-12-15T00:42:00.003+08:00

Stress, Stress, Stress, Stress.
But feel loved by my brother and mother today :D
My dear brother called home when he was out to get lunch, asked me whether i want any drinks :D
And my mother helped me to typed out answers in Microsoft Word as the pdf file cannot print because of security issue.
Complain no more, i'm blessed!

TG for being able to do my MMNS Test with confidence! Although having little time because of last friday and Sunday's work. Studied for my MMNS only on Saturday and Monday, both days revised only during late afternoon because i'm sooo tired! TG for strength too! Studied my MMNS from Saturday late afternoon to Sunday morning 6 am! Subconciously slept for 2 hrs, headed to service and worked from 3 - 10pm straight! Zombie face literally, i'm a superwoman. Wonder how i managed to survive lol.
And lastly TG for next year January working schedule! 2 days/week :D

NETSEC GO GO GO!

I love ArtBox

2010-12-10T23:27:00.003+08:00

I learnt how to wrap better presents today and YiLing visited me :D So happy! My boss offered to buy drinks for me and let me off @ 9pm instead of 10. (: Thank God! And i told my mum about going SOT and she is supportive of it. She always wanted us children to be holy lol. Still got to pray. But still, gotta pray! If a thought always comes back to you, it could be the calling of Him. Thats what i thought. Seize or not to seize?

Its finally here!

2010-12-09T01:04:00.005+08:00

Received my Acne Inspired Atacoma Wedge on Tuesday while i was preparing to go to school :D! Unexpected! Thought it would take longer.

God is so creative eh. I'm loving the "reflected mirrors".

Jesus Culture

2010-12-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

One of their songs in the new album Come Away :D An amazing Christian band that never fails to draw the presence of God. Anointed!

Koi, Thai Cafe, Movies Saturday Nightout

2010-12-06T00:43:00.009+08:00

My first day in Artbox was alright and thank God for favour again. I met this sweet lady in her 40's or 50's and she asked me to help her decide which notebooks and rubberbands to get for herself. So i recommended her and we had a talked, i told her i'm studying IT and she asked me for my contact number if next time she need to set up some server and she said about having coffee together or something. (Coffee? An opportunity to reach out LOL) And so we exchanged each other phone numbers. She's quite motherly and for me to recommend her is really challenging cause i myself is indecisive at times! However under such circumstance i am made to do so which is maybe a good thing? (:

Met my lovely primary school friends to hang out after my work @ Bugis of cause!The queue was super long! Wanted to bring them to try Gong Cha but no time! It was already like 8 plus. I prefer Gong Cha as their taste is more unique (: There's this guy who was a sales person entertained us while waiting for our queue ticket. Wayne was so humourous when he talked to that guy. It is best not to approach Wayne if you want his phone number for companies!

And..THAI CAFE! Yes and finally after soo long of wanting to go this thai zu chao for so long @ Sunshine Plaza! Finally get to bring my darlings to try this awesome place! The soups here are very nice and delicious so as the other food items!

I ordered this Chicken Coconut milk soup shared with Yufang and she totally loves it! It tastes sweet and abit spicy. This soup makes me happy!

Yiling's Chicken soup with tofu. Not bad if you want a more chinese taste(:Wayne and his Koi :D Thai Cafe closes at 11pm which is a good thing(: Can have supper here next time!

And heading back to Tampines for a movie because of the movie freak WAYNE. He was soo badd, twittered on twitter saying his walking with a frog -.-. HICCUPS made me a frog. RAH.

@ Century Square after a long time deciding a movie to watch. We were waiting for our movie at 11.50pm.

I just realised YiLing and YuFang also wore stripes tee (: Fated for Life! haha
Except Wayne. lol

Watched The Next Three Days (: A good movie. It shows what a guy will do to save his love no matter what it takes.

Time to study for my term tests next week and do my assignments after all the fun! Can't wait to go to Helipad rooftop bar! 2010, gonna end it well. Time pasts really fast. So much more to see, so much more to experience.

David Choi

2010-11-30T18:17:00.002+08:00

ASIAN PRIDE (: David Choi is my favourite artist right now. His music just speaks.

Thoughts

2010-11-28T18:14:00.002+08:00

1.C3 college.. My mum asked me about the school fees 5.3 aud per annum. She said 1 person go will be lonely. Again she said pray and definitely i will pray about it. Your plans but not mine. Pray, fast and worship i will. But i know i'm not yet ready, there's still so much more that i need to be molded. If this is Your plan nothing is impossible for You and i know that there's sacrifices need to be made.

2. SOT. I thought of going to SOT after i graduate from TP. It will definitely be an opportunity for me to get trained and to experience Him more than ever. And If its His plan for C3 college, it will be an advantage.

3. O School. Should i apply for it next year? Time, studies, work, money. AH

What are the sacrifices?

Again i have the burden for my cell group. Today i asked myself do i ever once take him as my shepherd? And just feel that the HS is telling me be there for him and stand in the gap. I can feel the desperateness of wanting the cell group to grow. Thats why growth was in his prayer list. All this while, its been stagnant for months. How to break this thick wall of Jericho? The only thing i can do is to pray, is to worship, is to fast. For myself especially. Evangelism. Thats what i really want to revive again inside of me. You reminded me of family today, family in a sense of belonging in my cell. Carrying the burdens together as a cell. It shall come to pass one day..

One thing off the load!

2010-11-26T20:50:00.007+08:00

I am loving GLEE :D
Glee Season 2 Episode 8 is one of the best! Kurt is super cute. Finn finally accepted Kurt as brothers :D

FINALLY PROJECT JUDGING IS OVER!! Mr Barnabas is still so ever fierce and funny. "I trash your seniors." Gosh. My face was red while i was interviewed and confused! His presence made us panicked, but well!! ITS OVER (: Time to focus on other assignments and quizes.

My Acne Inspired Atacoma Wedge is on the way! Got it for 39.50! The cheapest price i could get after searching.

I've got a job.

2010-11-24T02:08:00.005+08:00

Yes ArtBox @ Bugis :D Went for an 3 hours interview yesterday before meeting Yiling, Yufang and Wayne. The supervisor called me today while i was getting ready for school and said my performance was very good and she like me. hahaha I thought i can work at the Tampines outlet but currently they don't have any vacancies. But well, thank God for favour! She told me she can help me to fight for commission during Christmas although i'm a part timer. I've got a good good boss. Thank God for answering my prayers. I wasn't really looking for a job but wanted a job since i have a relax school timetable. Just nice happened to pass by with ZiYuan while shopping a few weeks ago. The funny thing was that i didn't have the intention to apply for this job but Ziyuan does. She asked whether they allow china person to work here but they don't hire them. The person gave me the interview form when i didn't asked for it and i just filled it out and decide later if i want to work. I literally failed the mini interview badly and felt embarrassed as i was having a really bad bad stomachache. While filling in the form, i rushed to the toilet and when i came out and continued filling halfway, the person was talking to me and i had to tell her i'm sorry and rushed back to the toilet again! =.= Still, thank God again as while i was rushing in and out of the toilet, the person let Ziyuan filled in the form too and she got the job also(: Blessing in disguise because of my stomach pain hahaha. Because of me, Ziyuan got posted to Bishan lol. I feel bad. I hope i will be transfered to Tampines if they have vacancy. I'm soo excited to wrap presents and Bugis is not bad too as i can have my Koi bubble tea every now and then :D I heard from my friend there will be Koi @ Tampines too! Can't wait for Koi to be opened at Tampines!

Flea Market

2010-11-22T01:49:00.005+08:00

Day 1

Saw Ben here! He was supporting the charity booth at the other side. Not a coincidence! Ahaha botak army guy lol. I screamed at him for Kimberly's hat and he went to change his shorts as i spotted a hole when he squad down LOL. My friends didnt saw it. Observant me! :P
Indeed cross sell, up sell and over sell! (: Thank God for favour and for my friend Eileen to come down and support us and da pao food for us. Earned back my rental fee plus an additional 30 over bucks(: Told Him that 30 is enough for the day but i'm blessed with double of that :D Yuting and Yvonne came down after service and bought some clothes. They kept trying clothings none stop and here is Yuting with this green christmassy shirt that she tried on.

Day 2

A few clothes left..

Ben walking around asking for donations (:

Kimberly's hat! Finally the hat is with me after rotting at Ben's house for so long!

Donated 0.50cents for charity and got this cute little balloon puppy (:.

Ziyuan cute face.

Happy that Justine and Huimin came down today and i finally managed to give Huimin's birthday present after soooo long!!! Glad that Justine loves the green shorts that i saved for her for free! :D

And Finally..

Thank God for my lovely mum who baked for me 2 potatoes plus a milo drink after i bathed. I was sooo hungry as i never eat my dinner. When i reached home, i asked for food and my mum just gave me 2 otahs and ask me whether i want to eat chicken pau thats in the fridge. I just sighed and said ok as my dinner is pathetic lol. At least there's something to eat but i was surpised when i came out of the toilet that she prepared this for me. Motherly love ftw(: I'm touched and felt loved and warmth. Mothers are always the best, especially my mummy.

Joel & Luke

2010-11-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

Beautiful song, beautifully sang.

2010-11-20T02:08:00.002+08:00

If teenagers were given a second chance to live. More of them who were involved were charged.. What will He do if He is the judge? I guess He would have given them a second chance for He is always merciful. Murdering is a crime and is to be punished. However if they know they did wrong, they still have hope. People say why void the death penalty? Old adults, its still the same. The only reason is because they are young? I feel that they deserve a second chance even though.. And when they die, heaven won't be their place. If only they have a second chance to know You. What is wrong with those slashing lately? Teenagers these days don't they have a brain? Gosh.

I'm selling at flea market again tomorrow and sunday. Gotta clear those leftovers and new pieces. God, bless me with good buyers please! (: And favour! :D Cross sell, up sell and over sell!

Gong Cha or Koi?

2010-11-17T02:23:00.004+08:00

Currently Gong Cha is now available at Plaza Sing. WHOO! :D
Brought Esther and Yuting today and they both like Gong Cha more than Koi.
Thank God that we were the last before the milk tea is sold out. However i haven't taste Gong Cha's pearl because both times were out of stock :( But white pearl is replaced! White pearl is nice too(: Well i think i'm ok with both but Gong Cha's milk tea is more creamy than Koi. I guess they put cream inside?

XIA XUE was there too (: She wanted to buy Gong Cha but its closed already. haha

2010-11-15T02:08:00.009+08:00

Oh human, face it because i didn't ask for it.
The unnecessary forms when this perfect vase was reshaped by your hands,

which wasn't necessary at all.

After all its said and done,

the truth remains a question.

So don't come and make delusional conclusion,

because i didn't ask for it.

After all, you made the final call.

The End.

2010-11-12T15:37:00.001+08:00

"I love you Elena. And it's because i love you, that i can't be selfish with you. Why can't you know this.. i don't deserve you.. but my brother does. God, i wish you havent to forget this."

-Vampire Diaries S208

Lame conversation with Dennis on Fb hahaha.

2010-11-08T02:42:00.000+08:00

Today

1:16am

xiao hua hua!

1:16am

helloo

1:16am

come online!

i show u smth!

1:17am

okaayyss

i was appearin offline

1:19am

tsk!

hor

caught u appearing offline

so bad

1:21am

lol talk to me online now la =p

1:22am

hmm? i dun see u online at msn now leh

u got see me?

1:23am

yesss

1:24am

lol u tok to mi laa

i canut see uonline

1:28am

i talk to you le

1:29am

lOl!

forget it

i sign out sign in oso cant see u

nvm i show u here

http://www.agrobeach.com/index.htm

its a website i chance upon while searching for holiday sites

like quite nice leh

wanna go? hahha!

1:35am

haha seem not bad

if go, when will be?

1:36am

lol

see when u free lor!

1:37am

lol my only holdiay is the last 2 wks of dec

acutally can go one

1:37am

no la.. let u see see nia.. nxt time if u thinking of going wif ur frens can go wif them

or u wan go wif mi oso can! hehee

1:38am

haha thanks for intro. LOL

need money also mah.

1:39am

ahaha..

i think 3-400 shud be enuff?

nt bad right tt place!

see le oso high

got a strong urge to get a gf and go there

hAhah!

1:41am

LOL gf again.

yeah not bad. got snorkling. haha

go fb find gf lor :P

1:42am

hahaha!

walao fb find gf -__

got so easy jiu dun need wait so long liao!

lol

1:43am

haha go find some desperate girls can alr LOL

1:43am

tskkk!!

liddat

might as well find u go better!

right anot

haha

im not saying u desperate ar

lol

1:45am

lol me? cannot lah. the trip is for your gf one.

i will feel bu hao yi si de. LOL

i dont want to spoil your romantic dream you know =p

1:46am

HAHAAH

u oso my gf ma!!

goood fren!

hahaha

fren oso can be romantic de

1:48am

see? i soo concern of you leh.

touch anot? :D

1:48am

"quoted from flora" hahaha

yea yea

super touch

but gf alrdy reserved for maldives le

lol!

1:49am

hahaha yeah of cos can be romantic lol.

but not with guys, with girls.

i will shy one hahahahaha

1:49am

haiyerr!

den i just wasted 20min of my life talkin to u!

AHAH

zzZ

1:50am

lol! whaaatt

how can you say i wasted ur life -.-

RAHHHHH. baaddieeee.

more people go better right -.-

you ask your daniel and cm wheteher they want first lah

1:51am

lol chill chill xiao hua dun angry!

teasing u onli

nvm ba

u go wif ur frens

heh heh heh

oh man

im so hungry now

stomach growling

1:52am

hahaha.

me toooo im hungry

1:52am

bleh~~

1:52am

:( i never eat my dinner

1:52am

just now dunnno who sae not hungry

drink coffee onli

-_______________

den talk talk talk for so mani hours!

1:53am

not hungry mah, then now i ammmmm

1:53am

seee

nvr plan for the future

tsk!

1:53am

im so hungry tt i can eat a cow LOL

1:54am

HAHA

more like the cow eat u up

u so small size

and bony!

better grow fatter u

1:55am

LOL i where got bony.

i can eat cow horrr. hahahaha

fatter? dont want lah.

i normal size alr.

fatter not sexy LOL

1:55am

HAHAAHA

walao

onli ur hair very fat

the rest of ur body is bone!

bone oso not sexy!

u must eat till like ziyuan

HAHAAH

1:57am

LOL WAAAAADDD.

i not skinny lor. i have fats leh.

im uk6/8. its normallll

haha you like ziyuan tt kinda size ah =p

1:58am

hahaha!

i shall not comment

Hmm!

1:59am

aiya you dont have to comment lah.

aimee also tt kinda size =p ahahahahaha

1:59am

HELLO HELLO!

u good..

u touch my sensitive spot

2:00am

opsss.

you still not over her ah? hahaha

2:00am

hahahah!

over liao laa

now my mind is cleared

no more gers

tired liao

gers are so troublesome.. zzz ROAR

onli my xiao huahua is the best

lOl

2:02am

ahahaha be a monk lor(:

monk not bad you know. ;p

waaa suree not :D

dont make me too happy till i cannot slp later leh LOL

2:02am

-.-

i still scared u ltr wetdream lor!

hahaha!

walao.. u wan me convert to buddhism meh! =p

2:05am

LOL. hahaha i dont mind ah.

i convert to buddhi then i everyday nian fou jin to you hehehe

confirm zai one hahaha

2:06am

hahah!

u dun mind wad? wet dream?! eeeeee

aww.. why treat mi so good wanna nian fuo jin to me!

hahahah

den u must shave ur head wif mi oso

(Y)

2:07am

cos we're.....

WE THE CHENGS!! =P

hahahahaha

2:07am

walao

lame TTM

LoL

but i like

hahahhaa

yes WE THE CHENG AR CHENG CHENGS

2:09am

hahaha now morden times alr, monk/nun no need shave hair LOL

morden monk cool you know.

they drive sports car one LOL

of cos must like lah.

i flora cheng leh, no play play ;D

2:10am

hahaha! so i can just wear a cap wif 6 dots on top ar? dun need shave le?

hahaha

so convenient leh nowadays the monk

naiise~~ i like

2:12am

yeah cann why not hahaha!

start the new trend monk now =p

haha yeah monk smoke very cool

2:12am

but too bad i no driving license leh. canut drive sports car =(

huh

monk smoke?

loL!

can meh!

hor xiao hua

u telling mi u wanna smoke too!

tsk tsk tsk

2:15am

haha i thought you taking license test now?

hahaha cann, i got see monk smoke lol.

i cannot smoke lah, cannot spoil my image you know.

nxt time i must open a smoke campus

then give ppl smoke license

2:16am

eeeyer.. those are imposter monk

pirated de

huh? smoke license? why must? lol

u teach them how to smoke!

u baddie

bad ger

ltr i smack u

2:18am

hahaha earn money duuuhh.

now have car license,

why not smoke license LOL

teach ppl how to smoke and how to play safe from getting diseases.

smoke must have standard also mah.

hahaha

lol

having a smoke license, how cool can that be LOL

2:25am

hahahah!

u super lame leh

totally brainless suggestion

im trying very hard not to luff at u

lOl

oh xiao hua!!

i wanna nightnight alrdy

yawwwwwwns

2:27am

not brainless lor.

have smoke license more professional ok.

2:28am

lol! still wanan debate!

professional ur head ar!

kk i go le ar

chat soon..

2:28am

lol hahaha okayyyss.

lol gooo sleeepp!

dont dream of me ah,

i know i very cute like hudiejiejie

2:29am

=DD

HAHAHA

yes

hu die jiejie is cute

2:29am

LOL BYE BYE =P

2:29am

i try not to!

i dream of her oso wun dream of u!

hahaha

bye

2010-11-06T03:29:00.003+08:00

ps. if you are reading this.

I feel much better,
Sometimes things are better to leave just like this.

Cause it can't be the same like the past even if something is done.

I won't feel better if i make a response in a way.

Cause the pain will still be there.

Or maybe a better approach may solve the issue.

I learnt that before doing something,

thinking twice, thrice would be good,

Cause you would never know what it will cause.

I should say a thank you.

What do you think?

In the future please know that a technical way to ask for forgiveness won't work,

especially in this kind of situation,

cause sincerity can't be seen and

problems can't be solve just like that.

If you have the courage to make that decision,

then have the same courage to tell me face to face.

I have been waiting, you know?
I wanted to approach you to talk but i didn't.

Unless i'm the opposite sex whom should be the initiator in this case.

But well,

I wish you best.

2010-11-04T01:41:00.003+08:00

I wish i could hear you say everything is gonna be alright..
Thats what you will ever say when there's no other way..

2010-11-03T01:30:00.002+08:00

I went to his wake today. Listening to the speech prepared from his friend, girlfriend, sister and parents. The whole place was so crowded, lots of lysians were there. I walked around his coffin and i really don't know how to react, how to say some words of console to his family. I'm speechless. Seeing him in his coffin, seeing him laying just down there, i just cannot stop to wonder why. Why does this have to happen..He is soo young yet to turn 21 and just..

God, tell me why?

Its time for me to wake up?

Its time for me to start something?

Something that You've always put in my heart?

Something that You've wanted all along?

Pulling me out when all i wanted is just staying where i want to be.

Darren..

When i first know you i thought you're a typical ah beng,

But later on i realised you are totally opposite.

I will always remember your bubbly cheerful smile.
Rest in peace..

2010-11-02T01:42:00.003+08:00

I read the news about this friend of mine from my secondary school who passed away when he was badly injured at Downtown East. My heart is heavy.. Is this a wake up call? Why does God allow this to happen? He knew God but went away, he knew which path was the right path yet he chose the other way. It is definitely not an accident at all but was planned..Who would in a hell bring a chopper out of the house.. If only i have the chance..

2010-10-30T16:49:00.000+08:00

Keep drinkin' coffee
Stare me down across the table
While I look outside

So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet
And count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for your time
And try to not waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
You swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you
Right off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction oh
But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps
With my name on them in all caps
You got the talkin' down just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

All my life
I've tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt
And hide
Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

2010-10-27T21:45:00.004+08:00

God, i'm laughing at myself at why i chose leadership and character for my cds. 800 -1.5k words is required for writing about a leader. I hate report writting. I can't believe that i'm in this cds, this is really pulling me out of my comfort zone. I need to get over with myself. Another funny thing is a guy from this class thought i was a vietnamese. I told him i'm a singaporean and he asked if i'm i a chinese. Omg. So far thailand, malay, india and now vietnam. Thank You for giving me such a special face lol.

Ah and this Acne inspired wedge that i have been waiting for soo long! Now its availiable in Singapore. Gonna have this sooner or later.

2010-10-27T00:27:00.003+08:00

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

Though i am bombarded with so many trials,
I'll praise You still.

2010-10-25T00:24:00.005+08:00

She don't have a say ever since,
She knew the actions behind this,

She wondered why,

The best method maybe thats what she thought.

A selfish method regardless of what and how she would feel.

Everyday, day by day,

Oh how she forcefully tries to make sense to everything.

Oh hell yeah she knows its tough for the other.

She felt that way too.

Where is the honesty?

She thought.

Or this is too shallow to even qualify for it.

Honesty is like holding something in one's hands,

Its also like one care,

It don't seem this way.

To gain friendship takes a long time, but to lose one takes only seconds.

The same old shit i went through a year ago.

Never ever i want to anymore.

It cost me to lose myself,

It cost me a heartbreak.

Never again i am the same.

I had enough. I felt enough.

Need to Know

2010-10-21T03:11:00.001+08:00

I need to know...
I need to know...
I need to know...
I need to know...

Blessings after blessings.

2010-10-18T23:33:00.009+08:00

I came back to school today to do some report for my mp/sip before school starts and.. Ziyuan finally came back from China :D. She cut her and dyed her hair to dark brown wearing new clothes haha. I am sooo happy to see her back! Its like Yay (:. She showed my project mates and I the pictures that were taken during her trip to Maldives with her parents. MALDIVES. Wow. Maldives consists of many small islands and she went to a small island called Komandoo. This island is mainly for tourists. When i see the pictures, i was like wowing here and there. The water is soo clear and the weather is really good! How i wish i can go to Maldives one day. Awww. London, Paris, Scotland and Maldives. My dream destination to these places. Anyway i'm happy to recieve pressies from her :D

A pair of cute little rose ear studs, gold butterfly bangle and a "dog on the ball" necklace. So cute!! I'm in love with the necklace, i thought it was a giraffe haha.

And this Ginger Bread Man i recieved from Eileen :D I broke its head and hands while eating with Yiling and Bedok 85 :( This is super adorable! A good christmas present for the end of year :D

Lots of recieving recently. My band's late birthday present for me, high waist vintage shorts and, a black transparent collar shirt. Absolutely love the vintage shorts cause i have been looking out for a perfect high waist shorts but never got to see one i really like. However need some small alteration to fit my waist size. haha

Now the Cannon camera! I have been dreaming of having a cannon camera for myself because i can't always rely on people taking photos. God answer my prayers and He knows my desires. It happened 3 weeks ago when my mum told me that my father found a camera behind the taxi seat. And now it belongs to me as nobody come to collect it :D Its amazing how He works knowing my family financial situation. (: Like finally!

All of this blessings, i feel that its because of my faithful tithing to Him. Of all things this is what i'm most happy of after being a christian, being constant in this area. (giving myself a pat on the back(;)

Thoughts on the go.

2010-10-14T04:27:00.002+08:00

Indeed time passes very fast. Was just sitting at my house garden after going to Esther's house with my favourite teh-bing. Planned to pray, sit down and relax. Lots of things going through my mind and happened that Ray passed by me staring at me. But nothing is in an coincidence eh. He is getting married today. Wow. 22 year old in army for 7 weeks, having a baby boy soon to be born. Just found out guys have pre-marriage blues , no wonder he was walking around downstairs. We talked about anything and everything again and found out some little secrets which i'm supposed to know 3 years ago during the Japan school trip. I find it amusing seriously, but well, young days(: A good good compliment that i kinda needed and needed to believe it myself.

Had a good talk for a long time. I am happy for Ray. Banquet dinner coming next year and its my 1st friend's wedding i'm going to attend at the age of 20. Awesome. Wish him a happy marriage that lasts.

Its 4.50am, time to rest my head.

A Bad Dream

2010-10-12T16:33:00.001+08:00

Exactly.

2010-10-12T02:10:00.006+08:00

I am seriously tired.

I guess my invisible effort in aiding helps.

Call me a good cooperator,

to the very end of this plan.

Whoo. Finally.

Screw this,

i bet i did well.

101010, perfect 10.

2010-10-10T23:42:00.004+08:00

Wine. I just can't resist and bought a bottle of Moscato at the wine fair yesterday with Tash. Now i have bottle of red and a bottle of white wine at home. Waiting for the perfect time and moment to open up those bottles. This brand Brown Brothers is not bad. I've tried another flavour, Rosa yesterday and it tasted like berry which is more for night drinking whereas Moscato is more on the fruity refreshing side which is more suitable during the hot afternoon. There's no other better than wine.

Last Friday Night Spoof

2010-10-05T13:38:00.002+08:00

Pure EPIC. (: I just found out that Katy Hudson(Perry) was actually a christian artist before becoming famous. She grew up listening to gospel music and raised by christian pastor parents.
I love some of her gospel songs though the album was not successful.

My burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore

2010-10-03T23:46:00.004+08:00

Had a good good jog at night. Stretchings to sit ups, sit ups to push ups. Endorphins was what i neeeded for remedy.

The Constant Reminder

2010-10-01T16:06:00.002+08:00

His will. His way. His time.
Relax.

Flora (:

My Story

Right to the Start

This Ordinary Life by Michele McGovern

I've made it, SOT 2011.

Be With You by 3pm

What faith can do.

Off to Jakarta!

Chasen

JC - Show Me Your Glory

Happy Graduation, IFC 26 May 2011

Beastly

Waiting For Forever

God is SOVEREIGN. He is in control in ALL things.

Perfect.

The Final.

Happy Chinese New Year!

End of January, the mark of February.

Letters to God

01.01.2011, The starting mark of this year.

Update Part 1

Tests makes me stress.

I love ArtBox

Its finally here!

Jesus Culture

Koi, Thai Cafe, Movies Saturday Nightout

David Choi

Thoughts

One thing off the load!

I've got a job.

Flea Market

Joel & Luke

Gong Cha or Koi?

Lame conversation with Dennis on Fb hahaha.

Need to Know

Blessings after blessings.

Thoughts on the go.

A Bad Dream

101010, perfect 10.

Last Friday Night Spoof

My burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore

The Constant Reminder

God is SOVEREIGN.
He is in control in ALL things.